I can't tell you how many times people have told me "You are a late bloomer". For the longest time I didn't really pay attention to that phrase but as I am getting older (shhhh Tiff! I know I am the baby of the group but I am still getting older!) that that phrase is so true. I was the last person in my family to start that wonderful monthly thing, I didn't have to do any of those girly things (ie. wearing a bra) until I was almost 14, and I was one of the last people in my school to decide where to go to college and what I wanted to major in, and that is only a tip off the iceberg. I am starting to realize that I am the last one in my friends group who is single and doesn't have kids. With my last friend without kids getting pregnant, I am thinking that I need to get on the ball and find myself a suitable husband. I am not so pressured to have kids because I don't want them, but the whole marriage thing is really starting to bug me. I know that it will happen in time but the brutal reality that I am still single is starting to ring louder and louder. Being single hasn't only affected me in the sense that I am feeling like a really late bloomer, but it is also making me question relationships. I am being excluded from activities because I am not married and/or don't have kids, which I think is wrong! If a friendship is based off of a person's relationship status, how true can that relationship be? People tell me I just need to find more single friends but that is so much easier said than done. I am not a college student (at least not in the traditional sense) and I have 3 jobs trying to make ends meet so meeting people is rather difficult. I have been the victim (more than once) of my friends attempts at matchmaking and everytime it ends up the same - I am a friend that is a girl and someone that they can talk to when they need a girl's opinion or something along those lines but I am never the girlfriend. I am sure it will happen in time, I am just ready for that time to be now.
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